I grew up in a family with my grandparents. My father died when I was seven, in an industrial accident. Since then, my parents have been replaced by my dad’s folks. Growing up with my grandparents was good, they took great care of my only granddaughter, they took me to all kinds of events and clubs, and my grandmother cooked very well. But I still felt that difference between me and other children who had at least one parent. I also wanted my mom to go to school assemblies, and I wanted her to be present at the graduation ceremony at the end of my fourth year. But I seriously started looking for her when I was almost thirty. The idea came up spontaneously – I was going through old binders and accidentally found my mother’s information in her maternity records.
I googled my mother beforehand, found her social networks, but I didn’t dare contact her there for a long time. I wanted to visit, but my girlfriend talked me out of it. There may live very different people, why take the risk?
So I worked up the courage and wrote her a personal message. I called her son. Surprisingly, she responded quickly, flooding me with questions about what my name, how old I am, what my father’s name. And after getting answers that seemed like a good start and confirmation that she was my birth mother, I got blacklisted. She hid her page from me and blocked me on other networks if I tried to write. Her behavior made it pretty clear that she did not want to communicate with me. That’s just I do not understand how it is possible to do this to my own child? I am an adult, I do not ask for money or anything else, and she does not even want to talk to me.
