Seven years ago, I couldn’t imagine leaving the house without makeup. I didn’t care where I went. I could even go to a convenience store to get bread and kefir. Now I can walk down the street wearing absolutely no makeup, and I don’t care what people say about it. I can walk in any neighborhood, not just near my house.
But now, but before… The thought that I could meet any of my friends or acquaintances, and there was not a drop of makeup on my face, horrified me. Thinking about it, I would start some serious packing.
I styled my hair, dyed my eyelashes, put on eye shadow, powdered my hair, took out my lipstick and matched it with my clothes…And I went to the store to buy a loaf.
And it made absolutely no difference the fact that the bakery was right outside my house. Yes, the whole trip takes ten minutes at most. So what. At least I’m beautiful. And I’m not afraid to meet someone, because I look a hundred percent. And the fact that the grooming took a lot more time than the trip itself … Well, I do not care!
It seems ridiculous now, but in those days I took it very seriously. And I had this kind of gathering every time, taking up a lot of time.
As the years went by, and the thought occurred to me – why do I need all this? So that no one would think anything bad of me? Why should I be dependent on other people’s opinions? This already sounds like a lifelong dependency.
Right now I don’t care at all. I easily go to the store with no makeup on, and it doesn’t bother me. It’s enough to wash my face and comb my hair. And I noticed that such women are not so little. And no one cares about anyone else. Everyone is just busy minding their own business. So all the problems about who will think what, exclusively in our heads.
