With my first husband I lived together for 20 years. We never had children. Either it didn’t work out, or we didn’t really want them. I was all busy with my career, not even thinking about children.
And then at 43, my husband and I decided to separate. Feelings disappeared, we did not even have common interests. Despite the fact that I got awfully used to him, and not really wanted a divorce, I agreed to a divorce. And why be with someone who does not want to be with you.
I agonized for a whole year, crying that now I was all alone. Then I met Daniel. He was the same age as me, no kids, divorced. He seemed like a kindred spirit to me. I believed that I would find happiness with him.
And then we lived together for a year and I found out that I was expecting a child. I thought my beloved would be happy. But as soon as he found out, he dumped me.
So what am I supposed to do? At 45 alone and pregnant. Maybe I shouldn’t have had a baby. Who would even want me now?
