I listened to my ex-girlfriends and forgave what he did. I went back to my husband, and we lived like in a fairy tale. Probably it was good only for me, because I was afraid to be alone. He was a good man, but apparently he did not love me. And then yesterday everything fell apart again…
My husband went to his mother’s for the weekend. He didn’t come back in the evening, just sent a goodbye message. He asked for forgiveness and said he would file for divorce himself. At that moment, I realized there was no way to fix the ruins. I was alone. Young and beautiful. A divorcee with a trailer.
How could I go to bed together yesterday and ruin everything today? Go nowhere, as if for a long time prepared a plan of escape. I had protected the family as best I could, created comfort and supported my husband in the most difficult moments.
An illusion? The rose-colored glasses? I cannot comprehend how you can abandon a loved one for whom you have been your whole life. My mother-in-law called on Monday. No, not to console her. She wanted to make excuses for her son. Like, he never loved you, let him go and let him be happy.
All the loans were in my name, because we had them in my name. Alimony? And the point of wasting my nerves and time for these pennies? Yes, I cried a lot. I felt sorry not only for myself, but also for my minor son. At that moment I only wanted one thing – that my son would never become such a scoundrel.
Of course, now we were going to live modestly, but there was no other way out. It wasn’t my fault that my husband couldn’t love me after 10 years of marriage. I have a million questions in my head, only there is no one to ask them.
